As a Christian, mom used to insist that sis and I MUST find boyfriends who are Christians too. But now, I think she has totally changed her mind because her dearest daughter, my lovely sister, has been hurt savagely by a Christian ;-( As a mother, I can know that she wants us to meet the "best" men who are able to take care wholeheartedly for us. She doesn't care Christian or not Christian anymore but as long as not Muslim lar...
No doubts, my "principle" is shaky now. I witnessed how tough it was to overcome broken heart. I witnessed how this influenced my sis' life. I witnessed how love "alter" to hatred. I witnessed how a girl who is naive becomes a girl who is fulled of revenge in her life currently. I witnessed and heard all these horrible scenes... These give me a shiver cold in my heart.
Sometimes, I am afraid. Afraid of everything... Afraid of love but wish to seek it. Afraid of those who wear masks but yet they are my friends. Afraid of spliting but must face this. Afriad of change but it is good for everyone in certain circumstances. However, I know that if I afraid of everything I wont be able to experince value of life and I will be having dull life. God gives us lives.... I should appreciate my life.
I really don't know what should I do now. The only thing is to pray and leave to God. Hope these kind of feelings will totally disappeared within me and my sister.
May God bless my sis and her ex...
Forgiveness enable a person to lift down the heaviest burden in life and walk gracefully....
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