CAN I???

Presentation from amelia's grp was good as the topic "death and loss" fit today's condition of mine and my friends. i really dont know what can i do to help them or decrease the clumsiness of the situation when we meet together. i realize that when you know something that others don't know, it doesn't benifit you. nonetheless, it makes you feel worse. i m doubting that can i be brainwashed??? i don't wan to be distracted by these... i wanna give up. give up everything except my goals...

i also dun want to think about you anymore... i am pissed off now, SO can you just disappear in front of me, Mr. S??? you have run in my mind for a long time and don't you feel tired, huuh???

can i just fly to bora-bora island or maldives, settle down and spend my entire life there? or can i just fly to sudan and become the full time volunteer and dealing with the little angels?? this is what i want!!! i really want to abandon my burdens and do what i want... but life is not that easy... can choose what kind of person you want to be... Y CANT LIFE BE EASY????

hope i will be fine soon
& get back to my normal life...